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dreamingwithfairiesI used to believe in conspiracy theories.
I read David Icke's books, I watched countless videos and documentaries by various people about different topics from politics, to spirituality, to ancient history. I couldn't tell you exactly at what point I stopped believing in all of it, though I could tell you why. I also know exactly how and why I got into it in the first place, though I haven't had the chance to really delve deep and psychoanalyze what it was that attracted me to all of that, what made me believe.
It's relevant to me now because I have gone the other way completely - I resist, reject and deny. Yes, I admit corruption exists, and some things are shady and gotten out of hand, but I believe myself to be a realist. I've never really done deep research when I did believe in that stuff, I mainly just believed what I read and heard from these fringe people, despite the fact that they constantly encourage their audiences to do their research, I didn't.
There were a number of things I believed.
I believed that famous people, especially musicians, were under trauma-based mind control.
I believed the moon is hollow.
I believed we were coming to the end of an old age and the beginning of a new one.
I believed in false flags, and that the Illuminati card game is a legitimate guide.
I believed in mass mind control.
I believed in subliminal messages in the media.
I believed that global warming was a hoax.
I believed in Atlantis, The Flood, advanced civilizations in ancient times.
And just about anything negative about politicians and rulers, Agenda 21, Satanic cults, the whole lot.
Since I'm not American, I didn't really care about American conspiracy theories.
I suppose my justification for not believing in ANY of it anymore has to do with how disconnected I feel from it all. Part of me doesn't care. The other part doesn't want to care. It didn't feel healthy, like it was fear-driven. I found a lot more nonsense than sense, like their bizarre fear of technology and transhumanism, and the Judeo-Christian bent.
And yet I have to revisit this topic once again, to figure out where I stand once and for all, instead of being apathetic and indifferent. I know that cults ARE real, and that there are people who genuinely believe in witchcraft and the occult and practice these things, and occult symbolism and witchcraft is more and more prevalent. It's practically out in the open now. I know also that mind control is a real thing. That the entire nation of Germany had been brainwashed by Nazism, and that the top Nazis themselves were well-versed in occult symbolism, that ritual and symbol was most important to put millions of people in a trance, with Adolf Hitler at the center of it all. I know about the Schadenmaske, horrific masks which were used as punishment in the middle ages to regulate social behavior... My own uncle is in a New Age cult.
There are countless books detailing cults, mind control experiments, and systems of control organized by various governments around the world.
I guess another part of me is afraid, especially at such a delicate time as the Covid-19 crisis. My grandmother is an antivaxxer and is begging me not to vaccinate. I've already listened to experts discussing the whole mess. I'm not an antivaxxer, but I'm not confident either.
I guess what I want to do now is to actually DO my own research. Come to my own conclusions, get opinions from everywhere, not just a fringe community. There is something going on with humanity. There is this sense that we could be so much more than we are, that each individual is held back somehow, like there's a thorn in the psyche of humanity that needs to be pulled out, some kind of Leviathan in the ocean of the collective unconscious. If I might learn why things are the way they are, perhaps I could do something to build a better world.
I read David Icke's books, I watched countless videos and documentaries by various people about different topics from politics, to spirituality, to ancient history. I couldn't tell you exactly at what point I stopped believing in all of it, though I could tell you why. I also know exactly how and why I got into it in the first place, though I haven't had the chance to really delve deep and psychoanalyze what it was that attracted me to all of that, what made me believe.
It's relevant to me now because I have gone the other way completely - I resist, reject and deny. Yes, I admit corruption exists, and some things are shady and gotten out of hand, but I believe myself to be a realist. I've never really done deep research when I did believe in that stuff, I mainly just believed what I read and heard from these fringe people, despite the fact that they constantly encourage their audiences to do their research, I didn't.
There were a number of things I believed.
I believed that famous people, especially musicians, were under trauma-based mind control.
I believed the moon is hollow.
I believed we were coming to the end of an old age and the beginning of a new one.
I believed in false flags, and that the Illuminati card game is a legitimate guide.
I believed in mass mind control.
I believed in subliminal messages in the media.
I believed that global warming was a hoax.
I believed in Atlantis, The Flood, advanced civilizations in ancient times.
And just about anything negative about politicians and rulers, Agenda 21, Satanic cults, the whole lot.
Since I'm not American, I didn't really care about American conspiracy theories.
I suppose my justification for not believing in ANY of it anymore has to do with how disconnected I feel from it all. Part of me doesn't care. The other part doesn't want to care. It didn't feel healthy, like it was fear-driven. I found a lot more nonsense than sense, like their bizarre fear of technology and transhumanism, and the Judeo-Christian bent.
And yet I have to revisit this topic once again, to figure out where I stand once and for all, instead of being apathetic and indifferent. I know that cults ARE real, and that there are people who genuinely believe in witchcraft and the occult and practice these things, and occult symbolism and witchcraft is more and more prevalent. It's practically out in the open now. I know also that mind control is a real thing. That the entire nation of Germany had been brainwashed by Nazism, and that the top Nazis themselves were well-versed in occult symbolism, that ritual and symbol was most important to put millions of people in a trance, with Adolf Hitler at the center of it all. I know about the Schadenmaske, horrific masks which were used as punishment in the middle ages to regulate social behavior... My own uncle is in a New Age cult.
There are countless books detailing cults, mind control experiments, and systems of control organized by various governments around the world.
I guess another part of me is afraid, especially at such a delicate time as the Covid-19 crisis. My grandmother is an antivaxxer and is begging me not to vaccinate. I've already listened to experts discussing the whole mess. I'm not an antivaxxer, but I'm not confident either.
I guess what I want to do now is to actually DO my own research. Come to my own conclusions, get opinions from everywhere, not just a fringe community. There is something going on with humanity. There is this sense that we could be so much more than we are, that each individual is held back somehow, like there's a thorn in the psyche of humanity that needs to be pulled out, some kind of Leviathan in the ocean of the collective unconscious. If I might learn why things are the way they are, perhaps I could do something to build a better world.
